It’s been raining here much of today and yesterday, and outside, it looks as clear as Convict Lake, above. Such beauty! I have a deep sense of gratitude for where I live on days like this, and no, I don’t live near Convict Lake. I live in Running Springs, CA.
You and I have survived to one degree or another all of the issues of our childhood. When I began to write my book, I had first thought of naming it “I Forgive Me For My Childhood.” It seemed that all the issued I had dealt with were consuming my life at that time. I have a philosophical attitude that we live the first half of our lives asleep, and we live the second half of our lives figuring out what we were supposed to learn during the first half. At least, that’s what my life has been like.
One of my therapists ( I keep going back to get help whenever I discover another pocket that needs emptying) told me that over 70% of obese women suffer from issues of abuse. I am one of that 70%. What I experienced is detailed in my book, so I won’t chew my cabbage twice here. Let me say this: obesity is an incredibly intelligent wrapping which I formed as a layer of protection to save me from things too terrible to consider, to horrendous to live through. And yet, didn’t I live through them? Didn’t you? Do you have the courage unfolded now to get some help looking at what happened to you?
I had formed a concept that I was too strong for all the stuff coming at me; that I would survive regardless of how much hurt I suffered; and that there was a better way for myself. I ended up discovering the actual Truth about Life because I was obese and this is the best payback of all. So, on a gorgeous day like today, I have a lot to look back on and be grateful for. How about you?